My Embarrassing & Weird Old Art


I got up this morning and I said to myself, “You know what would do wonders for my self-esteem?” Showing over 300,000 people my absurdly embarrassing old art from animation school that I probably
should have burned by now! Hello my geeks and peeps my explainers and entertainers
my little uh lollies Rebecca param here many people asked me if I went to school
for art and animation school I’m a part of the animated storytelling community
on YouTube you think I went to school and actually you’d be right I did go to
school for this general run-through of my college education go I graduated high
school and went to a local private university to study theatre after an
intense year of theater and music classes I realized I wanted to fulfill
my childhood dream of becoming an animator so I then took a year of
nothing but art classes built up a portfolio and got accepted into Ringling
College of Art Design they’re kind of known for their animation program kind
of considered one the best in the world hmm now at Ringling at least while I was
there you didn’t just jump into animation the first day no no no no you
had to take a whole bunch of weird art and design classes just to prepare you
for the animation program and I’ll be honest guys I don’t think it was my art
skills that got me accepted into that school I think it was my good grades and
theatre experience because I was absolutely not the best drawer in my
class I was actually one of the worst so that first year and a half of weird art
classes I am more than certain that I made my fair share of terrible art
cutting to the chase Ringling is in Florida and my family used to own a
townhouse in Florida for business trips and sometimes my college stuff would end
up there in between school years recently we sold that townhouse and the
current owner sent me back some of my personal items that were left there so
guess what came in the mail for me nearly four years after graduation
a big old portfolio case filled with art from my first year and a half of
animation school and guess what we’re doing that’s right we’re gonna open up
this bad boy and we’re gonna try and embarrass the hell out of me knock the
old ego down a few notches official content warning a lot of this artwork is
from my figure drawing class which is the class that you draw nude models so
if you think you’re gonna be a little squeamish looking at some bad but
tasteful drawings of nude models then go ahead and click off I’ll see you in the
next video and yes I did look up YouTube’s Community Guidelines regarding
the and it’s all completely within the
artistic / educational parameters we good and here it is this is the box that
it was sent in I haven’t opened it I haven’t looked at this art I want to say
in like 6 or 7 years I only have very vague memories of the art classes that I
took at the time so this is gonna be as much of a surprise to me as it is to you
guys let’s get the sucker open so apparently I had two of them in there
I don’t remember two of them I only remembered the one on top but hey the
more the merrier let’s start with you so we’re just gonna take whatever is on top
first oh we’re gonna start things off with
some really awful figure drawing this was a homework assignment where you had
to take a piece of artwork that already existed and tried to recreate it but had
to have like naked humans in it although as you can clearly see I was a little
shy at the time about drawing the bits we’re moving on okay so let’s just kind
of start pulling off a little bunch at at once oh my gosh guys do you even
recognize who this is that’s that’s goofy okay so we had a figure drawing
class assignment in which we had to take a popular cartoon character and
basically give them a skeleton like figure out what the skeleton underneath
the body would look like and I just I just chose goofy I had to figure out how
exactly that skull would work good lord this is awful but this is actually a
very common practice that a lot of like animation artists do what I even get on
that whew I got an A my teacher was very forgiving this is a skeleton thing of
the Jesus Christ one that I did the one that I showed you earlier you see it’s
very important to understand the bone structure beneath the skin to really
understand how to draw the human body okay I remember my teacher actually like
really liking this one because I was really really awful in that class I was
really terrible and the first time I ever got like any sort of praise from my
teacher was I think on this one but just oh it why did she praise me this is so
bad always had the trouble with the feet oh I remember this model she was really
cool she brought her dog with her one day to class and the dog
was just so well behaved and so well trained that they let the dog sit in her
lap while we did a gesture of her so that’s really cool know what in the
world are these thing this was the type of assignment where they gave you like a
whole bunch of words and you had to figure out the line or the the pattern
or the design that best represents that word angry yeah okay claw marks all
right here’s a winner right here what does fat look like the 20 year old Becca
mm-hmm looks like the eyesore on board like everybody who’s watching this video
does that represent how you guys are feeling right now this looks like a
really weird game of Mahjong or something happy the feeling Millennials
never feel do you feel that way guys no good run track but in all seriousness
this is actually a really good exercise because it helps you better visualize
certain descriptive words and really bolsters your creativity a little bit
block people because we’re all just a bunch of blocks put together oh yeah
this girl this was Halloween Day and she was in costume so we did all of this in
her costume and I think what her costume was it was like a half woman and a half
guy and she just happened to have like mostly the guys tied turned towards me
oh my gosh guys no mouth this is where it all started and this is what your
hands look like when you’re in a figure drawing class and here’s your nightmare
fuel for the rest of your days this was actually a similar exercise to giving a
cartoon character a skeleton only I think this was Stewie Griffin and I had
to give him muscles but like why did I give him like a like more realistic nose
and more realistic ellipse I don’t understand that but this is another one
of those learning exercises where you had to know all of the muscles of the
human body so you can better draw the human body so just important stuff even
if it is really creepy oh no wait this is the one this is the one that I got
like a lot of a lot of praise for my teacher on this is the one where I
finally thought hey maybe I can do this maybe I’m not so awful
and this one’s better than most it’s not it’s not good but it’s better than most
random poses that prove I did not belong at this school yay more really bad
gestures more really bad gestures yes all completely necessary to being a
better artist and animator okay if you guys thought that Stewie Griffin thing
was nightmare fuel you ain’t seen nothing yet because the piece de
resistance what was this um I think what I ever gave it like a leaf what Rebecca
you draw you draw the breast but you don’t draw the junk okay oh my gosh but
I remember this to be was another exercise and like muscles and skin and
we had to take somebody else’s cartoon character that they chose for the
previous assignments and like draw a finished cartoon character over it and I
think this was a picture of Dee Dee from Dexter’s Laboratory and I don’t know
what I made her into like are these like supposed to be dreadlocks but why is one
forearm so much bigger than the other and what do these like frog fingers in
the Frog toes I have no idea what I was thinking this is super creepy I never
want to see this again so now we have this bad boy and he was heavy all right
what have we got here look these are big books in oh we’re gonna pull out
something colorful what so I have a business of Art and Design minor and I
had to take a lot of business classes and one of my favorite teachers was the
teacher of this class and she wanted us to do an art project of like what life
means to us and I said well life is like a balancing act
look at that derpy dopey expression I like the concept because I still believe
that life is nothing but a balancing act but still this this this never needs
again newsprint here we go yet another example of the
failures okay so this is the point where I found two whole sketch pads filled
with nothing but bad drawings just look at how many I’m flipping through right
now there is over a hundred of them and not a single one is good enough to be in
a portfolio I want to recall an old Walt Stanchfield quote that everybody needs
to remember don’t be afraid to make a mistake we all have 10,000 bad drawings
in us the sooner we get them out the better I’d say that number is higher
look I was in one of America’s best animation school programs and I was
still getting those bad drawings out to this day I am still getting them out
this is what getting better looks like it is mountains and mountains of ugly
unusable drawings out of a hundred you may have a couple that are okay every
professional artist out there has their own mountain range of bad drawings I get
asked for art and animation tips all the time and this is really the most
important insight that I can give you practice practice more practice even
more than that practice until you fall asleep face-first into your sketchbook
because that is what you are supposed to do in order to get better every bad
drawing is a tiny baby step closer to where you want to be okay I know I’ve
been ragging on past Beca pretty hard throughout this entire video but back
then she was really trying her best I was really trying my best fighting my
way through an extraordinarily hard college program surrounded by people who
were far better than me the very definition of intimidating I guess my
point in all of this is if a socially awkward theater geek with low
self-esteem who was in way over her head can do it then chances are so can you
just takes a lot of passion and self discipline and determination and maybe
some iron-willed stubbornness at times keep drawing all my new artists out
there and thank you so much for tuning in but now I got a tune out bye hey guys
editor Becca here one last thing thank you so much to everybody who donated to
the victims of Hurricane Harvey your kindness and love is such an inspiration
right now there’s still so much left to be done for those affected so if you’d
still like to I’m gonna leave charities in the
description below once again thank you everyone I really truly adore all of you

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